I thought I should let you know my idea. I already did not dare to you to have any anticipation. From Pan red there, I already knew early the majority American's prejudice, you thought between the Chinese and American's love, perhaps more was in fact one kind of need, the Chinese must ask for money, needs to go to US, needs a legitimate status, left these, perhaps likes not existing. Dear, your biggest worry also in this, right? Therefore we had known so the long time you still did not want to meet with me, you did not want to come China, also did not want to let me look at yours. Because you do not believe me, you suspect me to your sentiment real and purely.
Yes, dear, at first knew when you, I truly harbor the young girl naive US dream, has the dream to be able to make more money in US, the good life idea, this kind of pursue has had the mistake? You initially “ran” from Brazil arrive US, was not and I has the similar dream and the pursue? But more is, the world majority people all and I am same, has one good impression to US, thought there is most free, fairest, most advanced and most has the opportunity to enable own ability to display the limit the place. Has this idea I only then to be able to know you fortunately, not right?
As for ours sentiment, I thought I am extremely clear. I need the human who is worth oneself worshipping, your occupation, your music can with the specialized standard, you diligently attract me with the struggle spirit, along with time passing, I more and more believed you are that person, I am loving you, does not want to change. This point God also should be clear.
But the present, this kind of sentiment and the dream places oneself actually me in one kind of long-term pain. I did not know I future in where, only did know I need to wait for. Innumerable I ask oneself: Really only then that hundred fresh states only then have my happy life? In August, 2005 I already have obtained the most senior middle school teacher's qualifications, mother in order to dispel me to go to US and you in the together idea, she and my two younger brothers expressed is willing to help me as necessary to buy own house, how long has more than enough, I can have own house, the automobile, has the comfortable life. Starts them to respect me the idea, now they worried I went to there to discriminate the human, is bullied by the human.
Darling, in process which associates with you, I am feeling you to my love, I believed you said saw in the church when others wedding ceremony can think of me, is similar to me stares at the school spacious drill ground when the incessant rain thick day to be able to fantasize perhaps your airplane can descend in some one day in the vision which I hoped for (although you once told me this were dangerous, also was not impossible). Certainly, I also simultaneously also felt the humiliation, the reason that I could endure this kind of humiliation, was not I did not mind, but was I knew your idea, was the majority American's prejudice, but our love, will be able to contain this idea and finally to change this prejudice.
In any event, I all thanked God to let me know you, the happy experience was precious, the painful experience also was precious, was the life wealth. I believed the future some one day, I will not need anything which you will provide, similarly might fly to US to look at you quietly, again quietly will leave.

好了，那么长！！呵呵~~

I think that I should let you know what I am thinking. I can't afford to have more hope on you. I already know from PanHong that the preconception that most of the Americans have. You think that the love between Chinese and American is more likely to be a requirement. The Chinese needed money, needed to go to America, and needed to stay there legally. Without these, perhaps love does not even exist. Darling, thats what you are worrying about too aren't it? So, we know eachother for so long and you still don't want to see me. You don't want to come to China, and don't want me to go there, because you don't believe me, you dont believe on how much I love you.

Yes, darling, when I first know you, I dreamed America like a young girl, I dreamed that I can make thousands of dollars, and have higher level of living in there. Is that wrong? At that moment, you 'ran' to the United States, and dreamed like me. Almost all of the people in the world is the same as me, thinking that America is a wonderful place, America has the most freedom, best technology, and best oppotunity to show up yourself. With this idea, I had the luck to know you, isn't it?

About our relationship, I think I know it well. I need a person that I admire. Your job, your music ability, your level, and your effort to fight and win are all attracting me. As the time passes, I think that you are that person. I love you and I don't want to change it. God know about it very clear too.

But now, this kind of relationship and dream put me in a long and uncomfortable position. I don't know where is my future, and I only know that I need to wait. I asked my self thousands of times, is it real that i can only find happiness in that foreign contry? In August, 2005, I got the highest degree in middle school teaching. Mom and my two brothers would like to buy me my own house any time just to repeal the idea of going to America and stay with you in my mind. Soon, I will have my own house, car, and comfortable life. At first, they respect my idea. But now, they afraid when I go there, people make fun of me and tease me.

Darling, when I am affiliating with you, I'm feeling your love. I believe what you said 'in the church, when you are looking at a wedding, you remember me, just like when I'm starring at the empty playground, I think about your filght. Maybe someday, it will land in my hoping sight(I know that you said it is dangerous and not going to happen). Of course, I am ashamed at the same time. I can tolerate from this ashameness, not because I don't care, it is Because that I want to know your idea, the preconception that the most Americans have. Our love is going to include this idea and change this preconception at last.

However, thank god that I knew you. Happiness is very valuable, uncomfortableness is also valuable, it is the wealth for life. I believe that someday in the future, I don't need anything prepared from you, fly to America to see you, and fly back without anyone knowing.

（我就住在美国，是人工翻译的。上面那位一看就是用机器翻译的。2小时）